Quick mid-day thought:

I think about food a lot.  Like, I’ve had to actually stop myself from going up to our front desk and getting some fuckin’ Easter candy.  Three times.  At least.  I have this urge, and I can practically feel myself getting up from my desk, walking up there, and pouring some of those damn Hershey eggs into my palm, then popping them in to my mouth.  I can feel the crack of the hard candy shell, then feel the chocolate melting on my tongue.   

I think the fact that I can see, and practically feel, this happening so vividly probably helps explain why I struggle with junk food so much.  If it isn’t around, I don’t think about it.  I may have a fleeting “mmm, chocolate would taste good” type thought, but it isn’t obsessive like it is when I know those  Hershey eggs are a 20 second walk away. 

I have to wonder why this is.  Why I can’t seem to get the thought out of my head.  And it’s not like if I go up there and pop a couple candy eggs into my mouth, that these thoughts would go away.  They’ll still be there (I could have MORE!) and they’ll be even stronger (They were so good just a minute ago!).


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5 Responses to “Realization”

  1. Novia Says:

    I have that issue with Whattaburger. I can taste it, ooooooo and it tastes soooooo good. Or the Tacos at Jack in the Crack

    But then when I break down and get it, it’s not as good as I had built it up to be in my head and then I get mad at myself and mentally punch myself upside the head.

    how’s WW going?

  2. willrun Says:

    I so relate to this! I gave up fast food burger joints for Lent. no McD’s, Burger King, Dairy Queen, Wendy’s.

    Tomorrow is Easter. I am having a brunch with family at noon, and a
    prime rib supper at 6:00. I am sitting here trying to figure out when I can squeeze in a Big Mac. Seriously.

    My new diet as a “free day”, tomorrow is obviously it, as I have no control over the brunch that is being prepared for me at a cousins. I don’t need a Big Mac on my first free day of my diet but I sure am thinking about it.

  3. Novia Says:

    ummmmmmm y no write, write, giggle, giggle, run, run, update, update????

  4. Courtney Says:

    Did you have the big mac???

  5. runs4chocolate Says:

    No. I’ll have to save that for my next free day, as I know that in my upcoming “free” meal, my friend will not want to eat at McDonalds. I can just taste that special sauce though. LOL

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